Why do we have an inner critic?

That voice inside your head isn't actually a bully -- it's terrified of the very real possibility that you will fail, and it's doing whatever it can to keep you safe...

...but it doesn't have the whole story. Your inner critic literally believes that failure will lead to death and destruction, which is why its pull is so strong. It's not your job to cast it aside and push it down (that will only make it stronger). No, your job is to tell it a new story. Your fears are valid, but they're not all that matter in this adventure, and they don't get to dictate your choices. So, let's give your inner critic a few more insights that will help it feel secure.

Perfectionism is really just a mask for running away from who you are -- because you think there is a “perfect” version of you somewhere out there that isn’t flawed or weak. (Spoiler: there isn’t!) Humans love the idea of perfection because we think flawless = strong -- but what if we flip the script? What if our flaws are actually more powerful than the limited view of perfection because they lead us to innovation, growth, and an increased capacity for self-compassion? Human error directly leads to human growth, so the next time your inner critic tries to preach perfection, just remember: imperfection is powerful. 

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Perfectionists tend to care a lot about how other people will judge or value their work, which leads to a fractured sense of self-trust and self-love. When other people hold your self-worth in their hands, failure can feel completely devastating. But what perfectionism doesn’t tell you is that failure will lead you on more magical adventures than a “perfect plan” ever will -- the key is to remember that you don’t have to let other people’s opinions determine your route. You get to choose, and by learning to self-validate, your ability to take risks and learn from failures will only grow.

At the end of day, perfectionism cares about one thing: your achievements. But the problem with valuing achievements more than the process is that it will blind you to so many opportunities for creativity and moments of wonder. There’s a reason why so many billionaires are unhappy -- it’s because life isn’t really about what you make; it’s about how you feel when you're making it. Creativity exists to help you experience wonder in your life so that you’re actually living it. You can absolutely value excellence and progress, but if you don’t enjoy yourself along the way, what was it all for?

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My name is Kolbie, and before discovering the magic of watercolor, I was a proud (and miserable) capital "P" Perfectionist.

In 2016, I was working in the White House (dream job, anyone?) and felt like a complete fraud -- the weight of my perfectionism was slowly crushing my confidence. Kind of on a whim, I picked up calligraphy and watercolor, and now, five years later, my life has turned upside-down in the best way. I went from insecure political writer to confident author, artist, and online educator. I've helped thousands of people worldwide unlock the power of their creativity, and I'm not stopping yet.

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In order to let go of perfectionism, you need to figure out what you’re trying to escape, and then learn to love (or at least appreciate) those parts of you. In your journal, start with just one: What’s one characteristic of who you are that you’re ashamed of, or that you’re trying to “perfect”? Why are you ashamed of it? If you look at it from a different perspective, how might that characteristic actually be a good, generous, powerful thing? 

To build a stronger sense of self, where you value other people’s opinions without relying on them to build your self-worth, practice the “what’s the worst that can happen” game. Any time you hesitate to do something because someone else will judge you, think logically through the worst (realistic thing) that could happen because of their rejection. Will you survive? Will the relationship survive? Will it hinder you from pursuing your goals? Odds are, the answer is yes to all of those questions! It will be uncomfortable, but you can handle a little discomfort. 

The best part of any creative practice is the beginning, when it’s new and exciting -- and when you don’t know how terrible you are yet. The more skilled you are, the more self-doubt starts to creep in. To combat this, practice mindfulness and imagine you’re just a beginner during your creative sessions. Focus on how you feel when your brush hits the paper, when colors blend together, when you peel the tape from the painting. Imagine you’re experiencing these small acts of wonder for the first time. The more engaged you are in the present, the less perfectionism will have a hold over your work.

Watercolor can help you slow down and discover a new story

I was a Perfectionist through and through until I discovered watercolor. Diving into a creative practice provided a gentle way to retrain my thoughts, create moments of wonder, and build a life-changing sense of confidence and self-compassion.

I can't do the work for you, but I can de-mystify the "how" behind watercolor so you can jump straight to using it to build a healthy creative mindset and more magical life.

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